Monday, February 22, 2010

Week 8: 180 pounds

Yeah, I know, "What happened to week 7?" With the Monday holiday, my routine was all off and I didn't post. Not like I had any huge progress to report anyway!! So, kinda like my dieting effort, I just put it off.

Here I am, still, the same weight. Eight weeks have passed, and I have nothing to show for it. Had I just sucked it up for those eight weeks, where would I be now? Rhetorical, don't answer...

I know where I'd be, and that's the bugger of it all! If a guy can safely lose 2 pounds a week, I'd be at 164 pounds right now. There's still snow on the ground, and starting from 164 now until spring arrives would be awesome! And I know I could lose more than 2 pounds per week, and would for sure on some weeks, others not so much, but still, I'd be able to safely say "Week 8: 165 pounds".

OK, a crossroads: This revelation could take one of two tacks, the way I see it. The first is that I just get sad, give up, and resolve myself to a life of chubbiness which is not what I want. The second is that I get mad, find motivation, and start here and now with a fresh resolve to do it!

But as I search myself, neither of those two options have a louder voice. I mean, I'm not giving up but I'm not motivated either. I'm not fat, I'm chubby. I don't like it, but I don't hate it. Well, OK I guess I more hate it than like it, but I have spent 43 years toting around extra weight, and I guess I am just used to it.

So this post is not meant as a trumpet fanfare announcing another start, nor is it a withdrawal from the fight.

I'll get back to you.

Monday, February 8, 2010

Week 6: 181 pounds

Well, consistency thy name is me! Not once this week did I do anything athletic. But God will get me for this. It is snowing like a mutha, and won't stop for a couple days, and that means shoveling. Yes! Cardio!!

Of course, I have a 16 year old in excellent shape who can do it too, and what dad in my position wouldn't send him out to do it? Weren't we all sent out by our parents to brave the elements and get that damn driveway down to blacktop full width? Is that just me? I should call my dad...

Anyway, built-in excuse at the ready, I plan to do the shoveling myself. My son has homework anyway (unless there is a snow day; hey, I can wish too!). After the shoveling is done, while I'm all sweaty and tired anyway, would be a good time to hit the ol' treadmill.

Wednesday, February 3, 2010

Week 5: 182 pounds

Well, at least I'm consistent!

I suck at this! I have become incredibly skilled at finding reasons (excuses) for not working out, and they are air-tight in my head! I know, I know.... and that's the bugger in all this. I DO know!!

What I don't know, is what it will take to make me stick to my commitment. I can do commitments. I've done several: I quit smoking 17 years ago and stayed with it, I have been married for 23 years and stick to that, I keep returning to school to continue advancing my degrees (and avoid repaying my student loans; now looming close to $90,000 including all the accrued interest since my first loan in 1994),... damn, I didn't want to think about that last one.

The point is, I can stick to things. Why can't I stick to this?